How can it be that the busier I am - or at least, the busier I should be - the harder it is for me to find motivation?
Logically, if there's a to-do list as long as my arm - and at least as far as my elbow is going to result in income for effort, I should be right up there ready to get stuck in.
I know I am well organised - there is seldom a long to-do list on my fridge. But because I juggle several part time jobs around the children and various other commitments, I do have to manage my time pretty carefully.
One thing I have learned about myself over recent years is that I work best under pressure
Most people just can't operate that way. They need time to plan. Time to consider, time to organise.
Not me. So if I have two weeks to complete a project, rather than planning, spacing and timing it over that two weeks, I am far more likely to indulge in some serious faffing for 10 days, followed by one or two days of anxiety and then the final 24 hours in a complete head spin of productivity.
The lesson i have learned through this though, is not that I need to change the way I operate and become better at spreading out a workload, but that if this is my style, I need to work with it. So now, when a deadline is looming, I know that I am far more likely to need to finish my crossword/write my blog/tidy the pantry than to start work - and that in fact, if I do that I am going to be far more productive in the long run.