It's very unsettling... after all, how could this be? Between my two kids, three jobs, four volunteer positions, and quite an array of interesting hobbies you could argue that there's not much time left over.
I see a similar thing going on with some of the clients I work with - albeit on a slighter different scale. They are working like mad in their business or organisation, their productivity is at an all time high, and yet they feel like they are not really making any progress. The business isn't growing, it's not as profitable as once it was, or they are getting lower numbers to their activities.
It's frustrating, disheartening even. We're told that the harder we work the better the results - whether that be in business, or studying, or in our relationships!
There will always be things we do that are not fulfilling. But I need to know that at least I am moving forward, and that the things I am doing each day are making a difference to someone else, even if not to me. Sometimes I probably need to stop evaluating and just enjoy the moment a bit more.
I'm not very good at sitting still and taking stock - which is kind of funny since that's what I teach other people to do! But sit still I must. Sometimes it might mean taking a total respite from my daily life - no phone, no email, no jumping in and out of the car. Sometimes I think I need to take a really hard look at what I 'm actually doing and make a hard call on just how productive or rewarding it actually is.
I need to spend some time working ON me, not just working.
I need to learn to be a human being, not just a human doing.