Thursday, October 08, 2015

Once in a blue moon

Apparently a blue moon happened on the 31 July.  

And if the conspiracy theorists are to be believed, 2015, and in particular the August - October period of this year, are going to be...shall we say...tumultuous...for the world.

Well I'm no conspirator, I don't really hold much stock in astrology, and on the Pollyanna scale I usually rate as a 10.5 but  when I look at the last 6 weeks,  all I've got is WHAT THE ACTUAL F**K!!??  Momma told me there'd be days like these but seriously.....

It all began at the start of September, when I glibly remarked to several people that I had the most boring life ever.  Nothing dramatic ever happened you see, at least in a negative way - my life was an oasis of calm where the most drama one might see would be the cat bringing a bird into the lounge for a morning snack...or someone might steal my parking space...or the supermarket would be out of my favourite brand of coffee.

But oh, oh dear, perhaps I tempted fate in making such a proclamation, because literally since that day, the longest list of crazy, random, unrelated, unexplainable and RELENTLESS dramas have taken over life.

Where to begin - could it be the three separate times my car was off the road for days at a time, for different things, including a car crash that wasn't my fault?  Could it be the trip to the after hours Doctor for a seemingly simple sore throat that resulted in diagnosis of two unrelated and completely random illnesses in my children (and a different one again for me)? Could it be that in the space of 90 minutes IN ONE DAY the car broke down (first time), I ran over, and killed, a neighbours cat, and my grandmother died? Or the day I heard that a man I had been very attached to when I was much much younger, had died unexpectedly at 48. The day both my fridge and my washing machine broke down. Or a few days later when a tap broke and I lost an entire tank of hot water before I was able to get it fixed.  The news that there is major repair work required on my house, that is in part due to crappy workmanship, in part to an incorrect council sign off, and in part to faulty product, which is going to cost me in the tens of thousands to repair? The weird movement of random things around my property that no one seems to know about? The friend caught up in domestic violence. The work issues. Oh the work issues. The financial worries that I thought were over are back, they are ba-ack. The other car accident I had in a borrowed car that defied gravity and left me shaken but not stirred. My long wakeful nights worrying about a list of people I have no right to worry about. 

Oh I could go on, that is but a taster of it all.  Yes WTAF.....but if you don't laugh you cry, so laugh I will - even though much of it is somewhat hysterical....

But for all those awful crazy things, to hear that  the mother of my sons friend was killed at work, put it right into perspective.  For me, it's a bad run.  For that family it is an absolute tragedy. Perception might be reality and my list is long and arduous, but in comparison I have nothing to complain about.  My rubbish is a long list of just that - rubbish.  It's just a coincidence that it's all happened at once, right?

I heard an expression in a TV show tonight, that I think comes from AA - 
The premise is that the road downward is essentially a 'choice' just in the way that the road upward, or back, is too.  But hang on a cotton pickin minute, I didn't choose any of those things up there - they just happened. Random stupid happened.  And all I have done, in the end, is let life come and me (somehow it seems safer that way).  Maybe when some things happen it is as a result of digging - sure isn't that what i wrote about in my previous post, but sometimes, crap stuff just happens to good people - and it all comes along at once. 

So these things happen once in a Blue moon. Crazy season. Whatever it is, I'll take it.  As long as it's over soon please.

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