May was a month of decisions for me, especially relating to my work/professional life. After spending almost a year juggling 5 contracts with 5 different organisations - the theory being that I could fit all those obligations around my children more easily than I could a ''full time'' job, I came to the conclusion that something had to give.
I like to be busy really I do, but things had gotten crazy. Add in after school activities like swimming and dancing, and not helped by the end of daylight saving, I was absolutely sick of having to push kids out the door in the morning, and often be arriving home in the dark- and sometime having to go back out again for meetings more than one evening a week. My own interests started taking a back seat - to the extent that I had almost lost interest in the things that were once my passions.
And so, not without sadness, I resigned from one contract at the beginning of May, and from two others at the end of the month. It was in some ways a scary decision - not least because of the significant drop in income this will mean for me - and in others so easy. The appeal of working for one organisation (currently two but I'm working on that!) far outweighed the cons of holding lots of different contracts. I'm hopeful that I will now have the time - and mind space - to focus on growing my main job more meaningfully, and with any luck make more money that I was before too.
I have also given notice to a community group I have been involved in the leadership of for 7 years. That was a tough one, and I am still feeling quite conflicted about leaving for a number of reasons. My contribution is a vital part of the groups success (sounds bold but it's the truth), I really love what I do there, and I see a real need in our community for what we do. But, it's another day a week that I am committed to non-income earning activity, and the time has come to rationalise that.
In terms of my own career path and goals, I need to be focused and ensure that my time is being spent in the right places and with the right people. I'm enjoying going to events I once would never have even known about - even though I can't abide small talk I'm getting better at it. I am getting to shape my own role and see some good outcomes from my efforts.
I'm hoping that this redefinition will make me a better mother, a better employee, a better boss, a better person. Time will tell.
Do you ever feel like you are burning the candle at both ends, and sometimes in the middle as well? What do you do about it?