reflections

ever looked in the mirror and simply been horrified at what looked back at you? Listening to the sermon on intimacy with God, preached by (she says ever so proudly) my lovely man last Sunday, I couldn't help but think about how my faith is reflected in my everyday life...and consequently, having to consider that actually, sometimes, in fact a lot of the time, the way i am in 'real life' doesn't really reflect how I am 'on the inside' - or at least how I strive to be. For example, the inner me is calm, peaceful, takes joy in the detail, works tirelessly and uncomplainingly. The outer me freaks out on a regular basis, is boisterous, bossy, big picture, and loves moaning (well maybe not but I do it often, and loudly). Is this the me I want to see reflected for the world to see? Oh no no no...but what to do about it? Still working on that one. In the meantime, I guess I'll have another chamomile tea (yeah alright, another glass of wine...) and suck my tummy in another 2 inches...